Sunday, September 28, 2008
 | So, in the blog, "How Does One Become a Lesbian?" I mentioned 2 people who were pivotal in my experience. The first was Denise. She was my first clue that I was a big raging lesbian, the source of my teenage lust, and an amazing part of my memories. She and I reconnected a couple of years ago. She is doing great, is as wonderful as ever. But had NO clue, until reading the blog, the significance she held in my adolescence. Now she knows and has handled it rather well. Better than I expected. An amazing friendship has blossomed and we have gotten a chance to know one another as adults. A fabulous reunion is planned and I am stoked. The second was Bonnie. She was the first girl with whom I had an actual encounter. I haven't seen her since 1994. I talked to her on the phone once about 3 years ago. Then yesterday, I was shopping at Wal-Mart. As I begin down the aisle, I see a very familiar face. It's her. I stopped and spoke with her for several minutes. She didn't recognize me at all. Which I thought strange, I don't look that much different than senior year. Older- but the same. She did look very different. She was thin, her eyes were dark, she had sores on her face, was jittery, she smelled like piss, and was clearly on some pretty serious drugs. She had her 2 toddlers with her. It broke my heart to see her that way. But it has always been my oath to myself to stay out of other people's drama. So, I said "it was good to see you," gave a hug, and walked away, leaving that part of my life back in 1994- where it belongs. Goodbye, Bonnie. You changed my life in ways you will never understand. However, the past is where you must stay. Some things are better left as memories. |
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